What makes you happy

I think ou need some vitamin R.

R is for REEDY!!!

Hey kids,
or more precisely, hey self (that's the purpose after all)

This will get its needed revamping. Later.

I was just thinking. What is it that makes me glad? I don't want to get into the moral side, that is, the "ought", the ethical. Simply, which circumstances practially require my contentment? I think this is very different for different people; hence, some of us get along better than others. And, if you think someone's made glad by what makes you glad (video games, sport, a hobby) you're more likely to be inclined towards them - whereas if you think they're a little different, (say, philosophy major) you might tend to avoid them, without a second chance. See the implications?

Why consider this, you ask? I'd give it a food analogy. You might feel guilty, having heard enough health adds "slim today!" to your body when you eat food you know isn't "good for it" or is particularly full of one of the latest evils...lets see, i think it's still carbohydrates, but it was protein, then before that sugar, then fat. (in Austria they have it down - all natural, period.) So you eat something dripping with cheesey goodness or crusted in dough and think to yourself, I shouldn't be eating this. This thought, however, affects what you put in the mouth not at all, and only helps add to psychological disorders and maybe indigestion. Point being, you choose not to enjoy what is happening anyway just for some - well i don't know why. That's related to wondering what makes me happy in that the what makes you happy (what tastes good, like fat and sugar) is natural and a part of your daily, or I hope at least yearly, diet as a human being, and you might as well chew it for all its worth. For me this means mentally dissecting it. Being anal (i decided that's short for "analyze"/"analyzing") about it. Savor the flavor.

For you, it might well not. So just quit reading this blog now.

If we have a wide variety of what contents us, we have a lot of friends. Quantity, anyway. Quality requires more depth in those areas, perhaps? Or it's unrelated. Who knows.

Um okay. So one person says, "I'm going to Cancun and laying on the beach and shopping." That's their idea of something good. Or partying and drinking. Right. Or some nerds really enjoy their studying. That's one place to get your kicks, I guess. ... I personally am thrilled with my planned trip the rest of the summer to CO near the mountains - heaven - to work a little, chill, have peace in my soul and read read read (=intellectual stimulation) with a companion (=not being lonely; emotional), imagining day trips hiking (=physical). That pretty much covers all 4 areas of ME-ness. Which means I'll be happy. But my personal idea of a good time is not everyone's ideal.

Cos...life is made out of thrills, it seems; there's the mundane, the sad, and the glad - and we strive for getting by and then are blessed when something special happens. Which is why we have holidays, and also why God ordained them, even since the Jews in the OT. Holidays are underrated. Perhaps stores shouldn't be open on them; perhaps we'd be better people if we learned what to do on them instead of fushing right on about the normal monotonous everyday life. (I'm saying you can't just say "let's keep Sunday holy" you have to know the meaning of "keep" and "holy" before you can expect yourself to understand and do leading to being blessed.)

Are there certain things that universally un-happify? The problem of pain/evil. So yes.

I, for one, hope my future lovely spouse has a poor relationship or two before we hook up. That'll make the backdrop for me even better - wait this doesn't relate. does it? where'd it come from? While I'm at it. I'm all for platonia. Plato. Platonicness in relationships. Why can't we all just be friends...? Seriously, people. It gets distracting after awhile. All the drama you know you love. Ech. (Russian, for "Ugh" or some such ! remark.)

Along other lines. I'm pretty excited about God. That'll have to come soon. It's real good though. I don't see how you really can feel glad about anything else.

Also. I need to figure out on paper here sometime what's been striking me so intensely. And that is, how much I am mirrored by those around me: I am who I am based on who I'm around. For better or for worse, that's the only way I know to perceive myself: in comparison. Etc.

This has really been noneloquent. I'll try harder next time; just had to get it out there for now. I gotta go sleep. G'night.